“the whole world n I would miss u”

I'm crying like a fool because I feel so helpless in making you feel better. You are right, I don't know you anymore, I don't know anything about your life anymore. And still... I'm crying like a fool because I wish you could be happy..

Why do you look for explanations and reasoning to excuse your misery instead of trying to find real hapiness? Do you really think this is the most of hapiness you deserve or that exists for you? So that you stopped looking for more? Then where is that smile I used to see on your face? Why do you like to play the victim all the time? Do you think you get more attention when you cry than when you are happy? Where is the fighter in you? Is it worth to pay with so many tears 3 or 4 moments of happiness spent with someone who is too selfish to care for you at all?

But I'm probably just a fool who doesnt know you anymore and maybe I should just stop trying to understand you and your ways... and I should stop crying because probably it's not that bad if you still don't want to leave that place..